....I see this happening in other people's lives and now it's happening in mine.....

So now the ball and chain has a link to Lance Armstrong, no he has both balls still. He's a cancer survivor....the scans were clear, it's gone....it's fucking gone. I keep thinking I should have had some sort of emotional blood letting yet I'm just numb. Numb with relief that I don't have to add widow to my repertoire...numb to the aspect of the other shoe dropping. But I'm not numb to hope....I still have that in spite of the lot we've endured...I still have him....I still have hope.